Ryan used to have this fantasy of having sex on stage in front of an audience. I was never interested, but once we had sex on stage at a club where he used to work when no one was there. I told him to just imagine there was an audience. He said it just wasn’t the same. I think that was pretty bold of us regardless.
His new crazy thing is that he wants to get into public flashing. He wants to take pictures of me flashing in public and me to take pictures of him flashing. I told him that we could do that in our apartment, but he said it just wasn’t the same. I don’t want to shoot down another fantasy, but Hong Kong is a very crowded place. There’s no such thing as privacy anywhere except in your own apartment. We went for a walk down Nathan Road and I pointed out that there were people everywhere. It’s a very large & busy road, but the whole city is crowded. I know there are some nature areas on the outskirts, but we haven’t gone there yet.
He suggested we do it at Disneyland, but there’s no way I’m doing anything like that there. That’s where we work. Forget about getting kicked out of the park, we could lose our jobs. That would mean going home very early with our tails between our legs and having to explain to everyone that we had to leave the country because Ryan wanted to see my tits.
I’m all for fantasies. I think they can be good & healthy in any relationship, but I don’t want to do anything that’s going to hurt us. I’m not sure if he fully realizes this, but we live in China. Breaking the law here might not be the smartest move.
apparently your Ryan is heading for an "i-want-to-be-a-pornstar" phase, i suggest you nip it in the bud.
ReplyDeletei dont get why he wants to "share" you with the word, be it having sex infront of an audience, or photos of you flashing.
if you are an aspiring actress, you need to keep in mind 2 things:
1) love and acting do not go together
2) dirt can ruin your career, and what your boyfriend is proposing is said dirt.
in the end, the choice is yours.
Ryan wants to be a rock star. I don't think he'd make a good porn star.
ReplyDeleteHe doesn't want to share me - he wants to be watched. He's a bit of an exhibitionist. He's always kept private pics private so there's no reason he wouldn't do the same with flashing pics - but as an actress I do have to think about my future and I really don't think flashing at Disneyland - and getting fired for it - is the best career move.